Black Russians Came to Visit This Tuesday.

Well, lots to update I suppose. I went home this past weekend with Erin, and although it was an amazing weekend with my family, it was also bittersweet. We are just taking some hard hits now, and I hoped everything would be getting better, but it's not. This is life.

School is actually under control, but I need to keep up on everything and stay productive. If I stay ahead, I will be alright. Just gotta keep working steadily always. My last semester is supposed to be easy; instead, I am slaving away.

I desperately missed my sister and parents, and I am so happy I got to really spend time with them. This was the first time I randomly went home, and I kinda wish I would go home more often. Will I go to law school closer to family? I have no idea, but I really do enjoy my family more than ever.
I have been fighting off a stupid flu/cold thing for about a week now, and it still is in the same stage it has been in. I really hope I don't get sick because that's about the last thing I need right now. Everyone, even professors, have been sick though. I have had 5 classes canceled already this semester. That's crazy...and good all at the same time.

Blah...well I'm feeling pretty sickly now so I should sleep. Just thought I'd get in a little update, although it wasn't amazing. Oh well...not everything can be great all the time, right?

"To laugh is to risk appearing a fool,
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental
To reach out to another is to risk involvement,
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self
To place your ideas and dreams before a crowd is to risk their loss
To love is to risk not being loved in return,
To hope is to risk despair,
To try is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, is nothing.
He may avoid suffering and sorrow,
But he cannot learn, feel, change, grow or live.
Chained by his servitude he is a slave who has forfeited all freedom.
Only a person who risks is free."

The Snow Looks Like Glitter Today

It has been a truly lovely morning. Have you ever had a day when you are just completely overwhelmed, but everything falls nicely into place for you? Today is that day for me. I got one class canceled, and my first aid training for tonight has been canceled. Since I did a ton of homework yesterday because I thought today would be very busy, I can now officially breathe. And it's nice.
Tomorrow I head home again, this time with Erin. She has never been to visit me, and I really am excited to show her my small town, even though it will only be for two days. I am getting sick, so this going home thing may be a very good thing considering I will get lots of rest and good food. It's definitely necessary. I am pretty amazed to say this is the first time I've ever been home on a random weekend, and not some kind of school break. Weird. And it's in my last semester of school. That is dedication, people!
All of our professors here are getting sick. I think every person I've talked to has had at least one class canceled since the beginning of the semester because of illness. I have had two and a half classes canceled. But now, I keep hearing of students getting sick, and I feel kind of under the weather. Hopefully, I won't be missing classes because of being sick. I hate being sick, but then again, who likes it?
It has snowed every night this week, I think. Yet, there has never been a significant snowfall. It just is absolutely freezing! I am ready for spring for sure. Where are you spring? Hopefully, spring comes early and stays here.
Let's see if anything else is new. Heath Ledger passed away on Tuesday. That is crazy. Like Erin pointed out, there has never been an actor of our age, our time, our movies pass away in a tragic way until now. It is definitely sad. The autopsy reports are still inconclusive, but I really hope it was accidental instead of a suicide. I don't want to think of Heath Ledger purposely taking his own life. That would be too sad.
In other news, my classes are just about killing me. At this point, I am just barely keeping up, and I still have one more class to add on that starts Monday. I just need to get through and be able to walk in graduation in May. It's insane that I am graduating. I still cannot get over it. I can remember just getting to college like it was yesterday.
Well, time to get moving for the day. I have homework and packing to do today. I might actually clean too...yucky cleaning!

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." –Marilyn Monroe

Guess What's Back? Back Again?

American Idol season 7 has begun! The season always starts when I need it most: in the midst of a cold, boring January. The auditions are classic, as always. I am enjoying myself fully. However, last night I missed most if it because I was in a meeting. Tonight, though, I am absolutely tuned in as I write.
The first couple weeks back at school are extremely stressful and chaotic. I hope that is finally over for me. I have to catch up and get into a nice routine. This semester is going to be the most interesting, but most involved semester yet. I get to make my own magazine, I am writing a research paper about gender-based violence in times of conflict in Africa, I am writing another interview-based research paper on women in the military, and I am designing business cards, brochures, posters, etc. I will indeed be a "Jane" of all trades.
And I have great news!!! I cannot believe I even waited until the third paragraph to write this, but...drum roll please. I got my first letter of acceptance to law school from Duquesne! I have somewhere to go next year. Granted, I still will hopefully have more than one school to choose from, but if all else fails I am in somewhere. And now instead of saying that I will hopefully be in law school next year, I know that I definitely will be in law school next year. I have slightly more room to breathe now.
So, I have so much on my mind right now that I can't sort thoughts. Therefore, the next little bit of this blog could be completely sporadic. Here it goes. Yesterday, John Mayer stood up for Jessica Simpson in his blog. I'm telling you what, that John is a nice person. Maybe he'll read this and come to Dayton to marry me. On that note, I will go into football. I am having a desperately horrible dilemma because the Packers are playing the Giants. So, here are the two teams I like best in the playoffs now, and they are playing each other. Dang it. But at least I know I want the Chargers to win. I am one hundred percent on that decision. And last random thought: I miss Ryan so much! Today was a really hard day. We are doing a project on organ donation, and any slight mention of death immediately puts me back into a horrible mood. It's still completely unbelievable. I will never ever ever ever ever be able to wrap my mind around it...ever!
Welp, this blogger has run out of steam. I guess American Idol has sucked all my thoughts away.

"In the game of life it's a good idea to have a few early losses, which relieves you of the pressure of trying to maintain an undefeated season." - Bill Baughan

NO QUIERO!

Well well well...it has been awhile. This girl has been super busy, or at least just caught up in life so much that she couldn't write a lot. The end of break was perfect, and completely calm. I came back to UD, but I came back still on vacation. I cannot be productive yet, but I need to be or I will fall behind. This semester I am attempting to complete 21 credit hours in 15 weeks. If I can do this, I will be able to walk in May graduation. I'm not so excited to sit through a 2 hour ceremony, but my family is super excited for it. So, I talked to some people, got some classes shuffled around, and I am all set I do believe. My last three classes I need to take will be whatever I want to take. I'm happy about it.
So far this first week has been amazing and horrible at the same time. It is always hard to come back and get acclimated to everything. I am kind of getting over the college scene. But I am enjoying time with my besties...it's my last semester here with them, so I better. Already I have had a tearful goodbye with my freshman roomie. I have also had some tearful conversations with some amazing people. Still waiting to pick a law school though...
This semester will be as hard as the last one, but hopefully after it's all said and done, I will be feeling prouder than I ever have. Then I can start getting ready for bigger and better things. I can't believe it...I only have a couple months left as a Dayton undergraduate. Craziness!!! Well, there's nothing more to say at the moment. I will be back later with some more profound thoughts. Not much is profound at 2 in the morning besides me laughing my face off at the fact that I don't make sense, but who wants to read about that?

"I’d rather be a could-be if I cannot be an are; because a could-be is a maybe who is reaching for a star. I’d rather be a has-been than a might-have-been, by far; for a might-have-been has never been, but a has was once an are." –Milton Berle